Hi guys. How was your weekend? I decided to talk about online school today since it is the reality that we're facing. There are a lot of pros and cons to this. But at the end of the day, I can assure you I'd rather be at school.
I was never home, either I was at school or I was at ballet - I had ballet everyday, private classes and sometimes I'd study there because I was more productive there. As you can imagine, with this quite active life I had, it has been difficult not to procrastinate at home - and that's the big ass con on online school.
Basically, my school schedule is really really really bad. I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays - as I told you guys last week. However, my teachers send us a lot of tasks - with deadlines - and I end up doing them like 1 hour before the deadline and that makes me stressed because I notice I'm procrastinating and I'm not able to do anything about it.
The platform we have our classes, despite others opinions, I think it is really intuitive. We work on Microsoft Teams and we're able to do / have everything there, our calendar, our assignments (and hand them in), our classes, chats with teachers, files they give us... I think it couldn't be easier for us to be honest. We just have to pay attention to that application in order to be updated. And the best thing is that we can also have it on our phones!
Classes themselves are well.. I don't know, I mean I recognise how our teachers do their best, but we have fewer classes than we should. This year is very important for us, and students like me, that can't go to school due to medical conditions are a bit left out. I feel super lost because I'm not at those classes they have at school, so I lose a lot of important stuff.
Anyways, as I said earlier, the big problem of online school is that you're basically learning by yourself and that's very easy to go wrong. I hand in everything in time, but I have a hard time starting the task, and that makes me really frustrated because I feel like I'm not doing anything :(
The good part is, it has been pretty nice to be able to have my first class of the morning while having breakfast on the garden. It feels really good and helps me start the day a bit happier.
And now that I am here in Algarve, it has become a bit more difficult than it was in Porto, I go to the pool and stuff and the last thing I want to do is work. I have to do it though, this week is gonna be full of tasks.
Also, I find it very cool how productive I can be under pressure like when I only have 2 hours to hand in a 20-question history task and then get a 94%. Love it.
To sum online school up, it has its pros and cons, but we had to adjust to the situation we're facing, and I'm glad technology could help us still get to be focused on school while on lockdown.
Also, the next year is my last year of High School, so I have to choose a degree. I currently have an average score of 17/20. However, I don't have many degree options. My "dream" degree, let's call it that way, is Crime Scene Investigation / Criminology. Honestly, I don't think I have the courage nor the right country to choose that as a career. So my safe option was/is Law. Lately I've been considering Global Design as well so I'm a bit confused and these last few weeks have been very helpful to decide that, even though I still have a year to do so. One thing in law that's holding me back is the fact that I'd probably have to work in Portugal and I want to have the freedom to work overseas if I want to...
As you can see, I have ballet everyday. How I've been acting towards ballet is one of the things that makes me feel really sad about this whole lockdown. I've been dealing with anxiety and panic attacks and I end up neglecting ballet because it's one of the things I miss the most. I miss going to the studio, my teacher screaming, I miss everything about ballet. Online ballet just isn't the same thing.. we aren't in sync and Zoom sometimes works pretty badly on my computer but again, this is what we have and my teachers are doing everything to make us feel like ballet is a happy safe hour for us, and it is. I'm glad for having them in my life.
In honor of my last two weeks laziness, I decided to do this one on procreate.
Let me just tell you something before I end wrap this post up. Yesterday I did my highlight covers for IG. So if you want me to do yours feel free to DM me at @lenadosantos <3
Big big kiss <3